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Monday, September 27th, 2004
10:25 am	new post place yes u can call me a trader...i've changed my posting site...now i write blogs at two places myspace.com and more importantly, xanga.com i like xanga...for some reason its easier to keep up with. sorry guys! if you still feel like following my posts, you can find me at xanga.com and look for alanarocks alanarocks is my xanga posts name! lol it sounds like a 7th graders screen name but i dont care! haha im at school now in the lib. so i gotta get back to work! im posting more pics on my yahoo album once i get home...but they'll be my fav. pics from whenever...so probably older ones that u've alreayd seen...if u wanna see new pics, go to photobucket.com and where it says go to album, type in alanarina...it only shows three albums, but there are sub albums in the alanarina one! lol my newest ones are the summer 04 one and my israel pics one! k have fun! alana (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
8:37 pm	a bad day welll...the day started off okay...after going to sleep at 1:45 i woke up a few times and then got up at like 5ish and got ready by not puting on make up or anything and leaving at 5:15... i went to julios house to carpool with him and tim from bio all the way to zion benton past gurnee for a lab day feild trip to illinois beach state park. i got there at 5:40 but i was supposed to get there at 6..i left earlier b/c i thought id get lost and make us late...he hadnt even woken up yet so i called and woke him up and chilled in his room while he got ready. then we went to get tim and drove in "rufio"'s cadillac all the way there. the whole morning tim wanted mcdonalds so we decided to go there afterwards. when we got to the parking lot half of our class were there waiting in their cars, so we blasted kanye west workout plan and everyone started to come out adn surround us. our windows were down and we were sayin all the words with kanye and our teacher was in the car next to us so that was really funny. we took our shitty ass quiz...first i raised my grade from a d to an 88% from yesterdays test but then i probably got like three out of ten on this one...dman that there goes my 88. farva (russ) we call him farva b/c...well if u met him u'd know exactly y...dove into the water onc we made it down to the vbeach...lol and he was throwing rosehips at me and saying take it as a compliment, a guy throwing flowers at a girl..im like stop that fuckin hurts...btw rosehips are like berries. anyways...jenny, julio(rufio), tim, chris, and katy went to mcdonalds afterwards and had an interesting breakfast and then i hung out of the sunroof on the way home. it was good fun to start my would be horrible and shocking day. i took a shower, got out and got a call from Rachel. I wasnt even gona answer b/c i wasnt in the mood...basically for anyone..i just wanted to get ready for work and like eat lunch or whatever. i answered though and she was like "so did u talk to anyone yet?" and im like no y? and shes like "so u dont know yet huh?" and im like what? and she was like Mark Ehlert shot himself in the head yesterday but he's still alive and he's in the hospital...he'll be blind when he opens his eyes and there will probably be brain damage. so let me know if u r going to the hospital. so i cried my eyes out and thought...ok ill go to work and tomorrow ill go to the hospital...then when i couldnt stop crying and i felt like i was gonna be sick every minute i calle din work and told steve what happened. then erin called me and she was gonna come to the hospital with me but i figured that id be tehre long...i went to get gas and called rachel for directions. at the hospital i saw alison and scott outside...inside mor nad more old friends kept walking in and making me cry. it sucks that that had to happen for us to get together. people came from isu, north carolina...western mich...etc. it was really weird to see this group of people again. they were letting people in two at a time. i got myself on the list with gilbert and we were on top of the list b/c i hadnt seen him at all yet...then more and more people were like we're leaving so we're going first, then his brothers went in, then gilbert kept dissappearing, then his dad came and went in and wouldnt let anyone else in for awhile and even then tehre were people leaving who had to go in front of us so that pisse dme off. for like one minute his dad said go in... went in with this guy bob i had never met and we each took one of marks hands. i had so much inmy mind to say to him but once i sat ther i couldnt say anything. i said some stupid shit too. i was like "hey mark, u probably wont recognize my voice right away because we havent talked in a while...its alana, davidov from 8th grade and part of high school. like i told him how much i regret our time apart and how mch ive missed his friendship and how much i love him. i told him that i met all of these people that i only dont know b/c i was out of ur life for so long and they are all really cool and they love u so much. i told him we're not ognna lose touch agai and he's gonna make it through this. i told him that since im a jew like always its rosh hashana and ill be coming back to isit aftewards...and after awhile i didnt know what to say so i was like well i havent seen u in a while but...u look great! which was kinda a joke. he had two holes in his head that he made on each side of his eyes-on the way in and on the way out, and a few other small holes the doctors made to connect things to him. he doesnt even look the same...his eyes are all closed and swollen...i felt so bad or him. by shooting himself a straight line right behind his eyes he shattered optical lines and now has a 99% chance of being blind when he opens his eyes. he couldnt really move, except his hands and he couldnt talk or open his eyes. he held my hand so tightly. and i couldnt stop crying. and i had to go so i kissed his hand and said goodbye. its so fukin hard. i have more to say but im sick of talking about it after i got out of the room, cops and his asshole dad came out and told us they appreciate us coming, but there were too many of us (like 45ish) and it was interfering with other families and other patients and the care of mark and other patients...so we had to leave the premises comepletey. others didnt get to see him yet...including his girlfrien. like 12 of us went to dennys aroudnthere and it was def. weird to be with that group again. i was about to go crazy there. i eflt right after i padi without even saying goodbye to everyone. erin called again and we talked and i talked to my sister and my parents kept calling me too. tonight...real world...real world auditon video...send that tomorrow and sleep Current Mood: like shit (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 12th, 2004
2:33 am	adams home for the weekend sooo, i am at the kanye usher concert and so many people call my phone...i always love hearing from aaron, so that was cool, and the others arent important enough to mention here...except for the most surprizing call of the night. i was planning on taking adams number out of my phone after my bday party since he didnt come...or come in or whatever, but i never did. he called me b/c he was home for the weekend and was wondering if i was still around/slash/he wanted t hook up basically. at least he has sex now- i was almost convinced of his homosexuality before. not like we had sex or anything, but yeah... last night when he first called i was such an ass to him b/c i was still pissed about my bday party and shit but then we talked again and it was cool...so i went over there tonight and yeah...thats so random. KANYE was off the hook!!! i almost actually cried b/c i got so excited when he came on and like OMG... when we were in line i talked to the guy who had dinner with him that night! lol i was like ill do ANYTHING to meet kanye and he was like dont say anything that can get u in trouble, u dont mean to say anything, and i was like i know me and i meant to say ANYTHING! but that still iddnt work b/c i doubt that guy was telling the truth about knowing kanye...he worked on tour. im actually gonna meet him but that's a diff. story. WE saw an amazing show...john legend, kanye west, usher, jayz, christina milian...etc it was really nice. afterwards we got "lost" b/c we went too far west and ended up turning around in woodstock...oops. then i drove home and almost went out with luigi but we ended up not going out. maybe next week but if hes sketchy one more time hes lost his chance. actually last night he wasnt sketch at all..i jsut got tired. whatever. i talked to alex last night, was with jeff, and talked to robyn and aaron and i totally miss all of them so that was really nice! today i woke up atlike 12:30 but i thoguht it was alot later and i got all dressed up in amandas hat and everything and i went to go pick up my check from cubby bear...yes very nice check just paid in full my new digital camera! tristin and stece gave me the weirdest look but i dont fucking care b/c i hate that bitch and he's probably fuking her. then i got ready and took a shower b/c every onc ein a while i work for mara sabath. shes a party planner so tonight i worked a bar mitzvah. it was really easy and i made 80 bucks for 7 hours-go me! i also met karim, earl, and one other guy but i forgot his name(very hot black men who rap)...omg i cant believe i forgot his name. anyways the other guy is a choreographer, he teaches dance, he raps, and he works for elite force (the dance group/dj that they had there) so he's IN with the business...he's working with brandy right now and like he knows redman and shit. anyways, he had a pic of him and kanye and i was like OMG id do anything to meet him...so HE INVITED ME TO A PARTY. I go with him and there will be tons of celebs there including kanye and he's gonna introduce us and shit. he's like im just gonna warn u straight out that some funky ass shit goes down there after a while and i was like as long as i hook up with kanye im good! lol so then they both called me tonight while i was at adams. karim is in a rap group called endeskize...ts spelled weirdly i dont know how to spell it actually but he has that tattooed on his arm. anyways, he's gonna send me music to send out to everyon...they've been around for a while opening up for people and shit and like soon they'll be on kanyes production label thing...haha i met them first! im excited about that! ok i have work tomorrow...like 5 til closing but its a sunday so i doubt we'll be open too late. i need to write a speech this weekend at some point too. k gonna go sleep Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Monday, August 30th, 2004
5:48 pm	alana love im listening to frank bang's secret stash (the first cd) and i forgot how much i liked this music but they're much better in person. wow i really miss my bro lately. im gonna try to go see one of his next few shows at least. today was probably the worst day ever...i dont know y but ive been in the most vulgar mood and i thik im going mad soon. today i got home at two and then went to sleep at three and woke up at 6:00 for school...i brought my hookah to school today! lol my bio teacher never knew what it was so i showed it to him and he had all these funny questions. he's never taught before so he doesnt really teach us about bio and somehow we got on the subject of my hookah so i brought it. soon ill go smoke some and do my homework. yesterday i took the train to see Ben at UIC. It was a lot cooler at first but then rachel came...jk. no, it was a lot of fun to see them again and like hang out like we used to. we had fun bashing paul and walking around and watching movies. it was a really good relaxing day b/c i was so dead from working all day saturday. Ben looks great (same as always :). I'm gonna bring him to one of Mikes shows b/c he'd probably like it live. its cool to see old friends again. of course my old feelings came back right away (not like i didnt expect that) but im not going to go for it. theres no way we'd be friends if we hooked up and then it was awkward. i thought about it though for sure! lol we watched pi and lord of the rings b/c rachel hadnt see it yet. then i took the train home at like 12:30 and yeah...today i was exhausted in class but it was okay b/c being at clc u dont do much in classes. i think the high light of my day was being chosen in speech class to get up and recite everyone names that i could remember in the room and of course i got everyones...im that good! lol then i went to cubby bear for lunch and carrie was my server...love ya carrie! lol neringa was being an idiot at the front again and i finally got my books back that i accidentally left at work. then i went to ballys and worked the shit out and then i went home and didnt feel like stopping so i went for a run. when do i ever do that?!?!?! wow go alana! and i quit smoking Erin told me that she is gonna try to transfer to ISU with me this semester and then we'd room together in the dorms for the semester and get an apartment together for junior year! im so excited im crossing my fingers for her! im sure she'll do fine. i think im gonna go visit dan tonight b/c i wanna! lol i think i deserve that after my lousy day today and shit. erin really made me feel better with her big news though and i got really excited for that! my scanner isnt working anymore so i gotta figure it out so i can put on more pictures...im gonna get picture cd's from now on. but i have such cute pics of me and tal and me and missi and me and josh so i really wanna get those online. birthdays!!! yesterday was robyns, today is haydens, tmorrow is matts, the next day is noah perlmans and then in spetember its rachels, my moms, and her moms too. yay month of birthdays! whatever though im really only celebrating my moms out of those i guess since im not with robyn, hayden, matt, or close with the others. Rachel said shes doing the same thing she always does on her birthday. she really hasnt changed at all since we were kids. sometimes i love that about her b/c no matter how long we dont talk we can pick our friendship back up where we left it and we still know everything about eachother, but it also sucks b/c i feel like she still plays the same games like she used to to get her way. i really dont care, ive always accepted that as part of who she is and shes still my best friend but like for a while this year i was led to believe that she had left that part behind her and matured a little. its alittle hard to explain what i mean without giving examples but i dont care enought to start something big btwn us- i just have to takl to her privately soon. im really glad that jennys home. we have been getting along lately really well even when we like pretend to fight or argue its all in cuteness or whatever. i talked to missi the other day and that was cool but i dont know if we'll even get together soon. laura is comeing soon but im not sure when and i gotta get off work and school for when she comes. we're going to UIC, ISU, U of I, and IOWA...and probably great america and stuff too. i just added UIC to the list b/c now i can visit Ben with Laura and she could meet more crazy people i knew in highschool. i really hope i dont get caught up in her accent and dialect while shes here though b/c im sure it wont go away right when she leaves and thats pretty embarrasing..or at least it was last time. ELLIE UR MY LIVEJOURNAL STALKER I LOVE U!!! jennys is coming over later and we're practicing my real world audition video and then we're making it like tomorrow or wednesday or sometime soon before they stp accepting them!!! AHH I HAVE TO DO THAT SOON!!! g2g do some homework and rest b/c i think ive been moving around too damn much today Current Mood: extremely upset (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
2:53 pm	only a few more days in israel if i had more internet resources i woud have written in this alot more but right now is one of the few chances i got while i was here and i think it'll be my last until i get home on sunday. that's right everyone, im home on sunday! its exciting to start working again and starting school...im curious about my classes this semester...they better be good b/c i have to do really good this semester. I start school monday and i get home sunday so all day sunday im probably gonna sleep. maybe its a good thing that most of my friends will be away. Laura called me and i couldnt call her back from here but im going to call her when i get home and im really excited to talk t her b/c we are planning her trip to come adn visit me. im going to buy a car, take a week off of school and work, and take her EVERYWHERE! lolyeah, i havent sold my car yet or looked for a diff. one...i have to get a move on that when i get home. Im also making my audition tape for real world when i get home; ive been writing it out when im bored here. ok so israel so far...i went to the dead sea, the kotel and im going thjere again tomorrow, all over, back to the kibbutz for a few days for the beach party ad stuff...i dont know, i guess ive been everywhere. I didnt go to azraeli or castro this time but thats good b/c it would bring up too many good memories and ill be in major debt if i went to azraeli or castro. oh yeah and i got a tattoo!!! its awesome and small b/c i was so scared but its really not that abd. then today i went back and he gave me a free tongue ring and a whistle ring! then we started to plan out my next tattoo! lol it was really funny. Im def. going to move here for at least a year or two when im done with college but im not making any life plans yet. ok its my aunts bday and im leaving to go to shoam soon so i am gonna go celebrate with her. i leave for shoam soon and then im with that family until they take me to the airport saturday night motzay shabbas. so im actually keeping shabbas this weekend! lol good luck alana love u guys,. have fun back at school and ill call u/visit u soon! ALANA (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 17th, 2004
3:43 am	just as robyn was saying no more random sex hey guys...well tonight was weird. i had my frist day on the job at cubby bear north...it was actually pretty good, easy fun, and to my biggest surprize, blair dalton, who used to be my like alltime best friend also works there and she trained me today. it was cool to reunite and shit. so that was good...then i got off and called jenny back ok i called jenny and she whispered her hello, like she was in a movie or something, so im like where r u? and she goes, at work taking someones order! lol who answers ur cell phone in the midlle of a tables order? lol so the ppl at the table said hello to me via jennys phone...it was cute. i met up with her at escape along with drunken sarah lateman, joel goodman, dan holt, brian maholovich, and sober robyn adelstein. they were all walking from sarahs house there and jenny had to wait for work to end so i was tehre earlier than everyone else waiting. while i was waiting, guess who i see? Dan chile, julian chile, zach glim, and two other guys i dont know. they are playing two against three bowling tourn for 40 $. dans team lost...lol sorry. so we bowled next to them but we were having so much mroe fun b/c more than half of our group was drunk and theyy were all serious. afterwards, everyone in both groups came over to my house. i thought sarah adn dan should hook up...maybe they still should! lol we'll see at alex and my bday party... anyways, jenny and i jumped in the pool with clothes on and the rest of them chilled. dans friends wanted ot go so they left but later on dan came back. like way later b/c he didnt want to ditch his friends earlier, which is cool. we talked about girls gone wild, our old times at school, dave, and his ex from recently rachel. its sad how things dont work out...and kinda cool how things do. missi was home for the weeekend...i kinda hope ill see her at some point this weekend but i kinda doubt it by the way she acted on the phone. she sent me a letter and i wrote back and she said she got it and wrote bakc too but i havent gotten it yet. so she said she was tired and that the people who were over were leaving soon so she could sleep..i half believe her. im sure its true but like, y not invite me for the time they are there?! i dont know it was weird. so i hope i see her, but if not ill understand when i get the letter. so that was weird. ALEX AND MY PARTY IS JULY 30TH FROM 7:30 til whenever...come whenever...leave whenever or never...write me a plane note b/c im going to ny then israel and back again a few days after the party!...bring ur own alcohol if u wanna drink...bring a swimsuit if u dont want to get ur clothes all wet. Current Mood: loved (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
10:35 pm	cant remember the last time i was this happy hey everyone...im on ryans computer and its only like 10:40 pm. yeah thats really early but its way past my bed time for the past two weeks during the week days. ive been babysitting ry and moll doll since two fridays ago but not on the weekends and ive actually learned so much from this experience. eventhough today was a kinda shitty-nothing happeneing kinda day, i cant remember the last time i was so happy. These kids are great...i dont really think about how much they love me and appreciate me, but they do. ive forgotten how long ive known them and everything that ive gone through in that time. today when i was driving them to my house to swim, ryan asked me if dave had a girfriend now. it was really random and weird of him to ask so i was just like yeah, y? he's like "she's probably not as pretty as u r" it was so cute. he told me that while whit was babysitting he IMed dave and told him he was my bf...lol how cute? anyways, the kids wouldnt get off the subject of daves new relatiionship. they asked tons and tons of nonstop questions about y we broke up and r we still friends...etc. u know how kids are, asking y y y everytime u answer the previous y. and going through so many y's answered a lot of my questions too. not like i wasnt over him a long time ago..but i really seriously am now and its great. of course i still want him in my life to be my friend and stuff, but not right away..it needs time and when its cool its cool..when its meant ot happen it will...after a while when its not too weird for him anymore. basically, i was so flattered by how much the kids cared about it. they told me they wanted to see them so they could yell at dave and be rude to his gf. i was like guys, they're happy, leave them alone...b/c thats whats im supposed to say, but really it made me feel so much better than all that. like i know he thinks im a dumbass and a whore and whatever else, but i knowmyself better than that, and at some point i'll prove him wrong. or maybe molly and ryan will put him in his plce lol. jk. i had a really lazy day, and through all of it i thought about patrick. andy and pam come home from europe on thursday, i work friday,saturday and sunday at 4, monday i have summer school, tuesda i get my wisdom teeth pulled, wednesday i have summer school, and then probably more work...so i really hope that we can find time to see eachother befre i go to israel. im sure we will...and he'll probably come to my bday party with anothny too even though tami will already be in israel...we'll see. wow though- i really like patrick and had such an awesome time on saturday-sunday! lol besides the worst ever walk of shame wit tami the next morning, ive never had a better weekend. maybe ill drive to the city and see him thursday night, or sleepover after work or something. whatever...this is just all exicitng! oh and by the way, alex and i are havin our anual bday bash again and its friday july 30th...like two weeks away i think. its at my house as usuall, anyones invited, starting at liek 7:30 and going til ur finally sober enough to drive ome! lol jk..its byob so if u get that drunk, swim it off and get the fuck out...jk again! lol sorry, like i said its past my bedtime. please come to the party and let others know about it...ill be making reminder/invite calls this weekend!!! missin patrick tami and anthony nights Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 11th, 2004
2:19 pm	MORNING AFTER...the BEST night of my life SO Tami and I decided to go to the city to see Anthony and Patrick. They're best friends and Tami and Anthony are together. Last time we went to see them, we had a cool time and I really liked Patrick. I didn't get too excited for it b/c I wasn't sure if anything was actually gonna happen. First we were driving around to pick them up from somewhere but we couldnt find them so we kept driving...then we found them but we said we'd meet them at anthonys building so we were driving in circles to find parking. we werent to happy abut that b/c we had just been driving for soo long. anyways a cop starts to slow down and like point at us and i thought it made the siren noise for a second but we werent sure so i turned down my music and tried to go even slower than the cop but that made us going like 20 lol. we finally pulled over, completely freaked out b/c i thought i was getting pulled over. they waved to us and we waved back adn then they signaled for us to put our window down so we did. The hottest cop ive ever seen asked how old we were. I was like 19, almost. and hes like "ooh almost" lol i still thought we were in trouble for something. after tami said her age he was like daaaaannngg, u guys are cuties. it was awesome!!!! we were like um thanks and they drove away and we drove away liek laughing so hard and in so much shock that our eyes were tearing and shit...it was crazy and totally brought our mood up. we finally got parking by anthonys and then had to move agin to go to patricks place. patrick has the coolest apartment in the city! i love it! Anyways, we went to this prince impersonator/80's retro dance club night party at the metro. OMG so many older people and SOOOOOO MANY GAY PEOPLE. It was so awesome! lol The music sucked, but we danced a bit anyways. Steve, their friend, also came with so we all chilled and stayed there til like 2. Then we walked to mcdonalds and I got food that i dont think i ever ate...oops they have it in their fridge...lol. Steve left, so it was just the four of us and we decided to go to Anthonys to sleep over. We were all on his big couch thing watching "the thing" when i realized that i had weed downstairs in my car. so patrick adn i made tami and anthony go get it, and while they were gone we switched the movie to phonebooth. not like any of us were watching. patrick adn i smoked up in the kitchen and omg...omg...i cant even describe it. Before we even started, patrick was like "this shit can make u throw up" lol like it really wasnt good stuff. so i guess that stayed in my head b/c once i felt the resin affects, i felt like i was gonna puke. like seriously i couldnt breathe. i kept drinking water and then feeling like it was going down my throat in big bubbles and was gonna come back up with everything else...i felt so gross and then i started trippin like crazy. Ive never felt that way ewe it was so gross. i started to see things move around..like things happened that i know aren't possible. and i got sooo paranoid. it was crazy. patrick and i hooked up YES! and yeah, that was very awesome! we ended up leaving at like 6ish to get back to my house so tami wouldnt get in trouble we were so high. tami dorve my car home and we went to bed at like 7ish. today we went to walker bros and now i feel sick from the food too. its 2:30 i have to go back with the kids at 6:00...ahhh..maybe if i feel better ill go work out a little. Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 8th, 2004
11:37 pm	israel i go to ny either the 1st or the 2nd...then on the 3rd, we leave for israel and im on a program til the 13th...then i go to the kibbutz and then to visit family in holon, jerusalem, tel aviv, haifa, hertzillia, and more...then im visiting some friends from my ulpan trip in all those places too. i come back either the 22, 23, or 24th of august!!! then school starts right away!!! YES! im sooo excited. today i faxed in my emergency form and im faxing my medical form tomorrow with my passport front page and i applied to extension on my ticket home and im booking a flight to ny this weekend. im soooooooo excited...i really really really miss israel and i really really really need to get out of here. im thinking again of making alliyah and this time im going to make my decision. k goodnight yall Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
11:30 pm	TELL EVERYONE ONE: im selling my car.. Ford Contour 1995 used one small accident..not on record...everything got fixed, 124,000 miles blue power steering power locks power windows, stereo radio cd player sound, abs brakes, v6 2.5 L engine, new batterie, new other stuff lol, selling for approximatly 4000 its parked outside my house...i need to change one of the tires but its good i think 2313 coach road long grove il 60047 let them know my number if they're interested 847-702-0105 TWO: we're gonna have a HUGE garage sale soon...im no sure when but soon...like the end of july. we're selling: my bed, my dressor, my table, my desk, my tv/stereo holder, my nightstand table, lots of clothes, a microwave that o=works well, our pool table, tons of other appliances, little gifts...some not even opened yet, books, cds, etc...come check it out and look on this for details about when it will be...tell everyone!!! Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
11:21 pm	CUBBY BEAR NORTH I GOT THE JOB!!!! YES...everyone, starting July 15th, I am a hostess again!!! Cubby Bear North here I come!!! I wonder how much i'll make and if i'll like it adn what i wear and if its eay or hard or fun etc...lol i love starting new jobs but im always so nervous at first!!! lol GOOOOOOOOOOO CUBS!!! today molly and I went to play baseball cubs vs/ sox and she was on the cubs so i cheered on the cubs and we cheered together the last inning. then we all had pizza and she got a trophy for the sport like ending and stuff...it was so cute...and so was one of the dads. He was a marine for 9 years and an awesome dad and he wore like a bar shirt and he played catcher...perfect body. ok im talking about someones husband and i would NEVER but like he was so cute thats all. Then there was this guy a neighbor who was outside while we were leaving and we totally checked eachother out...YES! lol. tomorrow starts another weekend of freedom. whitneys birthday!!!!!!!!!! yes thats awesome she's 18 now!!! and just last week she was using my ID! lol i love u whitney, happy birthday!!! today was joris bday too...i wish i couldhave gone out with her for it but im stuck here. earlier we were drawing so i mdae her a birthday card! lol i got a new phone...same number but all new phone!!! UYES!!! my 6 year old (molly) wants me to be with her camp bus driver. everyday she tells him i like him and then tells me he likes me..lol he's 23 and soooo hot. lol we're inviting him for dinner tuesday...lol my mom and sis and i got into a fight today...so im not still not talking to my dad, but we're not good again and now im not good with my mom either and my sis eiter so i only have my bro and he's not very reliable...that sucks. i love my mom, but she asks too much of me and shes getting soo nannoying and like i just cant talk to her anymore without fighting. IM SEELLLLING MY CAR...buy it!!! Current Mood: like a baby momma (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
12:39 pm	my birthday is in one month from today!!!!!! wow so lots has happened...ill make this short b/c right now i gotta go get the dog from the hospital and bring him back home... since last time i wrote, i got intoa big fight with one of my managers at panera and quit, making sure to let her know that shes a bitch and helped her realize thats why so many people are quitting. haha bitch! i still go back to visit as i did on july fourth and they gave me the discount still and all we very happy to see me...i miss the people but the money is nothing to miss. im looking for a job so let me know if u know of anything. i applied at cubby bear north and champs so we'll see and i should pro. call them by now. fourth of july was awesome! if the cops didnt end up letting us all go with permanent on our records warnings then it wouldnt have been awesome, but since they did let us all go, it was just added to the experience. a bunch of us went to the perlmans beach in highland park...its their grandpas neighborhoods private beach where apparently open fires are not allowed. some one who lives there called the cops on us b/c there was an open fire and we were shooting off illegal fireworks plus once they got down there we all had alcohol as well so...yeah...i was scared shitless for a bit. I guess it was better that i was with a group of kids that usually get into a bit of trouble and so they calmed me down and like made it fun. once the cops came noah was like partys over...we all helped cleaned p the beach and get our stuff together into garbage bags. we all gave our ids and told them what we drank divided by like 4...then noah gets on the drum and starts to play a little bit quietly..."we got busted..da da da da da...we got busted.." it was hilarious. we all hiked through the forest back up to where our cars were and the cops let us pack all of the rest of our alcohol into jims trunk. noah said "this calls for a song" and started to play the guitar...it was so funny. they played good cop bad cop so while the bad cop was asking us a million questions from his car window, the good cop was telling us stories about how he used to just leave everything adn run if cops came! lol everyone started to shoot out stories about how many times they've been arrested and for what...it was crazy. The only thing that made us all REALLY nervous was the noah situation. hes like my big bro b/c the whole perlman family is like second family to me and if he got another charge on him he'd be going to prison...so although he was the only one over 21 there, we all took blame for the suppling of alcohol to save him. Rachel said she got it all. the cops took us all to rachels grandpas house and takled to us more about the danger and stuff and then put us into the perlmans custody...which was so lucky b/c all that means is we got our party busted, we all got off, got to keep the alcohol, they didnt breathalize any of us b/c we told them we drank, they assigned designated drivers, put the warning on our permanent records, and left. rachels aunt was pissed and just kicked us all out...so we went to rachels dads house. we all had a talk with him. it was funny b/c i got there with rachel and just walked up to him and was like...billy, can i have a hug? i miss u...lol he asked if we drank or did other drugs and i said i didnt dnrik b/c i wasnt drunk and i didnt want him to know. apparently..and i didnt know this...they had weed and cocaine too...but they threw it in the water or something once the cops came. haha they coulda kept it! idiots, we didnt even get searched! aftera while i drove ted and jim back to there place in bartlett in jims car b/c they were too drunk to drive and we met rachel and everyone back there. we kept drinking a littel, i slept over and rachel drove me home in the morning. now im kid/house sitting for the next two weeks and i love the kids but OMG its so frustrating to be a single mother. i did like four loads of laundry today, cleaned the floor, walked the dogs, got the kids ready for camp, took the dog to the doctor, went ot thed ry cleaners, and cleaned parts of the carpet...it wouldnt have beent aht much if one of the dogs didnt decide to eat a razor blade in the middle of the night and bleed everywhere! g2g get the dog back from the hospis...see u all later have a good summer Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 20th, 2004
6:23 am	one more so last night i added one more to the list of guys ive hooked up with since i've been home...of course i was drunk, but thats fine b/c we're "hangingout" again on tuesday night after i close again at panera. so last night i was invited to like two different parties and i went to one fo them planning on leaving and going to the other one too but one of my good freidns didn't feel comfortable going to the other one so we stayed at the first one. which was fine b/c i left a message with my other friend and told them another night- so we'll party another night. it was funny too b/c later after i got home they called me again and i guess everyonethere oassed out except for one guy who i dont know at all, but he called me b/c he was the only one awake and he was bored...he's adam's friend. so i went to Chris's house last night after the party, and stayed til like 3:ish i think. it wasnt too late according to me for partys, but since i have work in five minutes (and right now its 6:15) it was really late. we knew eachother back in like grade school and high school but we never really knew eachother and i remember thinking he was sooo cute and liking him at some point but i cant even remember if that was in highschool or grade school. whatever, we finally hooekd up and that was cool...he's a sweet guy. there was some drama earlier with Mike as always. Whitney doesnt put two adn two together which isnt her fault, but yeah that sucked...we'll see if he calls and that will be it. so this guy at work is in love with me and keeps dancing mwith me salsa in the back adn telling me im beautiful without r with contacts/glasses, like either way. he tries to help me every second he gets, to like carry things or bring things to me. when i was on break he brought me a flower that he made out of napkins...lol anyways, he's from mexico and 100% reminds me of Shai...so thats weird. g2g call work again. shit they not answerin...ok ill figure something out...im gonna puke soon...that sucks Current Mood: nauseated (Comment on this)
Friday, June 18th, 2004
9:45 pm	closing at panera again tomorrow so today was the laziest day EVER! I woke up at 5ish to get ready for work and realized i had no clean polo shirts so i wore one that has a white collar but the whole shirt hsa the be the same color, even the collar, so my bitch manager sent me home to change my shirt. I told her i dont have a car or a shirt and that would be really hard to do, and then i had my mom come get me and i went back to sleep til one. theres no way im gonna go buy a shirt and call friends for a ride back to work with that bitch. so i took the day off and that was inf with me....i am in a bitchyass mood lately. so i slept til oneish and then watched ALOT of TV, ate whatever we had in the house, slept a little more, practiced with my new contactts, took a long walk, listened to music, obsessed over ryan gosling or whatever his name is for awhile, and yeah- thats about it. I tried to do some of my homework but whatever. so i dont have a car again b/c yesterday after my eye doctor app. it wouldnt start and alex came to get me and then i towed my car later. I have no idea whats going on with that, but i left my glasses in the car by accident so im wearing my contacts in for a lot more hours then im supposed to each day!!! oops. My mom and my sis went to get all my new furniture today and next week my mom and i are gonna go look for a new car for me! YES! I made a new israel -elana shirt...thats pretty awesome, im wearing it right now but its really small and only for like housewear or workout cloths or something to put over a swimsuuit. im really excited for our garage sale thats gonna happen pretty soon. were selling our pool table- finally...and my old bed...anyone need a pool table, or a bed!?!?! Last night i watche dDaria and My So Called Life- which happen to be my old two favorite shows. I cant wait til elcome back kotter comes on some random channel too. this week i also got my new birth certificate thing and applied for my passport, so i get to go back to israel in august without them knowing i just went! IM SOOO EXCITED TO GO BACK TO ISRAEL. Im kinda mad at some of my friends lately b/c they've either ditched me in some way or just stopped calling me and it kinda seems like they just dont care anymore b/c some of them are leaving soon (like in the next few days) and they arent even calling me to say bye or to tell me they're leaving or to see me b4 they go...so i guess whatever. after this semester, if i dont go to isu, ill go to israel...and eitherway, im getting out of this area and i will most likely have my family growing up anywhere far far away from here. GOD I HATE THIS PLACE! ok, back to sex and the city Current Mood: distressed (Comment on this)
Friday, June 11th, 2004
7:56 pm	thanks ellie!!! lovebbg2414's LJ stalker is elliespinelly! elliespinelly is stalking you because your LiveJournal is just SO damned interesting. They are also mentally deranged! LiveJournal Username: LJ Stalker Finder From Go-Quiz.com So was supposed to skydie today but the weather was really on and off and hey werent even jumping all morning. i was soooooo excited for it too. Im def. going to go this summer, hopefully next week or sometime this month. I really want peopleto come wth me though. i guess i probabl could have gone today but its an hour away and they said i could go at four but if it starts to rain then we wont jump. so i didnt want to drive al that way and not jump...so im babysitting ryan and molly right now! wow i love these kids. we're watching the cable guy right now- wow i hate this movie. anyone wanna g skydiving with me? ok so tomorrow im clsing at panera so hopeflly there wont be a donation coming and i can take home alot of food...also hopeflly rosemary isnt closing b/c she doesnt let u take that much with u. anyways, my pool is open so i can have everyone over to eat pastries and swim all the fat off afterwards!!! YES! summer is pretty cool that way. ANYONE WANT FREE FOOD, com on over tomorrow after like... ... ...10, 10:30ish! cool..tlak ot u later, i actually have to watch the kids and do homeowrk and finish my plane letters for Deb and Hal Brin! lol Current Mood: contemplative (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 7th, 2004
2:20 am	a lot of stuff work: sucks...they pay shit and im not liking it too much. next day that i have time im going to continue applying to other places so that i can work somewhere else and quit panera. tomorrow im supposed to work from 8-3...which isnt too bad if i hadnt worked EVERYDAY from half hour before opening til 2:ish the past week. im exhausted and im alllways tired now and i hate being tired when im out with ym friends..so i might call in sick tomorrow. if i do, ill still be busy though...i have to keep cleaning my room out like drawers and organize everything and make prices for shit for our summer garage sale going on in like a week or two i think. YAY WE'RE OPENING MY POOL TOO! thats very exciting! crazy good stuff about tonight: ok so when Jaime came in town we went to the hookah bar with Josh Prince and Jeff and i think that was it and then we saw a bunch of hot guys and made them sit with us and we took like a million pics with them. This one guy Tom, was sooooo hot and when we left that was it so i didnt think id EVER see them again- so sad. but fate, as i like to call it, came through for me again! Last night Amanda went to hookah with her friend lizzie and this guy ramon and ramon saw these guys that he graduated with and it ended up being tom and the guys! i went out with them tonight and only one of them remebered me but he wanted me thena dn tonight so that was why but tom "didnt remember me"..it didnt matter though b/c we still flirted and we were pool partners at preimier! it was hot and so was he and i prob. looked like shit but he didnt seem to care. he got my number and tomorrow night we're all hanging out. by the way, amanda and pat are together, and then its just tom and me, so like of course we're going to hook up..they all thought we were gonna tonight but we were taking care of drunk friends! lol so thats sweet! im excited for tomorrow! crazy bad stuff about tonight: dont really want to talk too much about it but like Amanda called me to make plans when i was on my way to etown with missi and i told her i'd be back by eleven. Anyways, hags good nad welfare went really long, so like i would've driven myself if i thought we would be doing good and welfare til 10:30 and going back, we were supposed to end that sooner and smoke hookah or something fun. anyways, the other girls wanted to stay until they finished anyways so that sucked b/c i was NOT having a good night and i really wanted to go with amanda to preimer. so like amanda and i went really late and when we got there alot of the guys left or were already drunk so it kinda sucked...plus at like 12:15, my mom called and bitched at me to come home...haha no! what i didnt like was that missi like was telling me sacrifices shed make for another friend of hers that shes willing to do tomorrow and like she wouldnt even leave early to drive me to my car when we were doing NOTHING! and i was upset and she could tell and it was kinda like "um do i have to be clinically fucked up for u to care about my feelings too???" whatever. Haganah: it was crazy. it was probably the sadest thing ever and it actually brought me down alot b/c i was so sad. I realized during good and welfare that the senior class that was graduating were the younger siblings of the people that i loved that got me into bbyo in the firs place. it made me feel so out of ti and old and stuff. and like- i dont know, like really sad to be leaving them- that group of hag seniors though are seriously the best class of seniors ever. I totally love all of them and they also made me feel really good about like sweetheart stuff b/c i felt bad i wasnt around more. wow- so if u read this...good luck to everyone in the future and my dream for haganah, is to always be their sweetheart! i love u guys summer: work (panera or other, go back to ballys, summer school (that starts tomorrow), my bday party with Alex which ur all invited to (july 30th at my house), israel!!! clc this semester (again:*( )and then ISU!!! boys: well i dont know y but lately there have been tons of them...i dont feel like a whore or anything though- like i feel good about all of them. there was this guy adam but he was like a booty call and im sure thats what i was to him too, so i doubt ill ever even see him again at least this summer but that was fun. Then theres fabian who i dont even like anymore, but i guess hes my boyfriend. then theres this guy mike whos friends with robyns friends from iowa...so hes cute and we like flirt through people-lol its hard to explain. Then theres noah, whos an old friend and YES i finally hooked up with him, willing to do more?!?! lol. Then tonight, TOM!!! YES!!! Then theres this guy from work who flirts with me alot and i think that one day we'll end up having sex in the cooler or something! lol haha jk! then there are always the friends' siblings (if ur reading on, please take not that this is a joke!) tamis bro elad has always been my love! lol jk...no but he's a sweeetheart and like an older bro to me! then there was the most insulting comment of the night "if we go to miami to see my brother, u cant hook up with him" that kinda made me laugh and kinda pissed me off...i dont hook up with EVERYONE! anyways. excited for: hayden to visit, laura to visit, to talk tojaime, to see udit in israel, to party with tami in israel, to go shopping and be tan this summer, to lose weight, for ISU, to visit friends from ulpan, TOM TOMORROW!, etcetcetc.. THURSDAY: energy, anyone wanna go?!?! amanda and i are gonna go and ill call erin about it tomorrow...im sure weisberg and jeff might wanna come too?!?! and maybe amanda and my boys will like to party as well! YES, huge group- anyone else, just holla at me! im gonna get daves glasses that they found for him then too, hopefully i wont forget! jk g2g to sleep- alsmot sure im going to clal in sick tomorrow...if i do then wake up, clean out my room more, tan/nap outside, shower, school, out with the boys!!! Current Mood: confused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 28th, 2004
9:09 pm	CPK with abby Went shopping with my sis and then ended up eating at cpk and it was a hella lot of fun. we drank and ate good food!!! i love my diet! i order things that we'd never think of ordering if we werent dieting and then everyone ends up loving my choice! haha fat people! i order better food than u! anyways, today work sucked and i got my . so that sucked too. but at dinner fabian called me so that was good. On the way home my sis went to put ten bucks of gas in her car adn we were talking adn we ccidentally put in a full tank but we only had ten bucks so that was a fun fiasco. she eneded up calling matt and doing credit over the phone...haha that was funny though. we made a good joke about paying 75 cents less for a 5 peice piza next time nad blaming the person we made eat the 6th slice...haha it was funny..u had to be there. Dave still has my money and id and he isnt answering his phone so ill get it later...oh well ive driven without a lisence for a long time before. robyn gave me awesome news right now ont he phone about a guy wating me!!! YES! i cant tell fabian. ok so last night was a crazy fiasco at energy and on the way getting lost for an hour! lol erin and i are going back on thursday proabbly with jeff and weisberg and robyn and anyone else who actually wants to go and have fun! big booty alana, dancing on the stage! g2g now ill write more later! if u want details about last night or robyns good news, call me! Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 27th, 2004
4:47 pm	im finally updating so this will be a long one ok heres the news for EVERYTHING since school ended. well, Alex came home and him and i and jeff and jeffs gf at the time, amanda hung out alot...then they borke up and amanda and i stayed friends for a bit but lost touch recently :( now everyones home from college and thats nice but aly is in spain and i wrote her a cool plane letter so hopefully she liked it. Im sooo jealous of her though- i wanna go study in spain!!! I miss israel like crazy so guess what?!?! i didnt give up so im going back in august! august 4th-24th i think? it depends when classes start in the fall b/c i have to come back before that. i work at panera and i dont work at bin36 so that sucks but paneras isnt that bad. its just really bad for my diet. i lost 15 and then gained some back since i started to work there. i need to cut down on that. Deb and I joined Ballys and I go at least 5 times a week and i just started to lift weights too...so its not much but i feel a lot better. Fabian and I are together now...its really cute. He took me out to dinner the other night and then after i drove him to the train station i met up with everyone at hookah. that was cool but everyones giving me shit b/c hes german adn we happened to meet the night we met in the holocaust museam. they're ignorant. im happy. Then there's this guy at work who keeps flirting with me even though i knwo one of his ex girlfriends, he's a year younger than me and he has a girlfriend now...he's all "lets have sex in the cooler" lol he's a cool guy and he's really fun to flirt with but i cant really see myself doing anything that would jepardize him and his gf or me and fabian. Eric called me the other night too- which was random...probably a booty call so i didnt go over there but maybe ill see him this summer. Then theres this guy mike who's friends with robyns friend randy and we went out one night to ihop (like all of us) and we were flirting which was fun for the night. Then there's this guy who goes to ISU and i might go there next spring so we were talking a lot and he asked for my number today so he could invite me to stay with him in the fall and we could "party" lol...that will be fine b/c fabian leaves in august and im leaving before he does so its not like its anything long term. wow lots of guys...dont worry not that much has been happening with that im working on bbyo life ceremonies for Tami, Emy, and Whitney! this shit is harder than i thought and i've written these speeches a mill. times before. i love these three girls but i almost dont wanna eve go b/c its like...oh thanks for letting me be welcome to something when i should've been able to come the whole time anyways. whatever next year will be diff. for lots and lots of reasons and i know the girls will still go to me for help bc they still do now! lol ha ha assholes! this weekend im going to aarons for a bbq on sunday...next weekend im house sitting and dog sitting for the wasserbergs and on fridya night i have pattyanns party, on saturday i have whits and zachs and on sunday i have elads and tamis.! yes- awesome weekend before my summer school starts. SUMMER SCHOOL = I HATE LIFE= mon and wed nights in grayslake! BALLYS i love u! deb and i go alot and i really liek it...im about to go soon for today b/c i didnt get the chance to go yesterday. yesterday i woke up, went to the doctor and got a physical, geini, and mental health tests exams...now im on medicine for shit id ont understand and they took four huge tubes of blood out of my left arm. i went to the library and my moms friends house to drop off panera food and then went home (no i dont rememebr doing any of that) when i got hom i past out and my mom tried to wake me up but i wouldnt get uo and i hadnt dranken anything that day or afterwards so i was like dying without my blood! lol im all bruised where they took the blood and all today i still had my bandaid on and my arm could hardl move! when i woke up i went to dinner with ilissa and her fam and jean. i love ilissa so that was relaly fun and her familys really funy. then i took a shower and hung out with deb and then the boyz came over to her house too. i missed real worl on tuesday- what happend?!?! deb, josh, and alex and i watched subway stories til 2 and i drove them to als house and went home. my sisters here now so we're going to get alcohol and then im going to ballys and then im showering and then when erin gets off work we are going to get ready and go to energy with all the guys too. fun night ahead! hopefully ill look hot in my dress that i bought 5 pounds lighter! lol my dad and i still dont talk but today my mom and my dad were opening the pool and my sister is over cleaning out the house to find things we dont use for our huge yard sale coming soon!!! anyways, my mom screams out that i should help my dad take off the pool cover and i was like mom what?!?! no....so he went outside and my mom was like "alana he's still waiting for your apology" and i was like ha! my sister made me promise id never apolojize to him. god i hate him! anyways...thats funny~ see u all this weekend or whatever...israel i missu HAYDEN< LAURA> SAYRUH...special shout outs this week! 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Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
10:23 am	denniss pics You can view the album at: http://www.hpphoto.com/servlet/com.hp.HPGuestLogin?username=dennismitzner&password=87231518 go there...i think there are like 40some pics and im in some of them and some are scenery but its really nice! i miss u dennis! Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
10:10 am	new updates from school my internet isnt working at home so thats y i havent been writing...sorry. Today is wednesday may 12th and I am in the clc library...i finally got to email people back that have been emailing me this week! yay and my friend dennis sent me a link to his israel pics and that made me really happy! I just took the easiest longest test of my life- psych! I love that class and now its over but tahts okay b/c i didnt like the people in the class! lol Now im gonna study b/c i have another final today at 12:30 and then I'm done and bring on da summertime!!! I start working on friday at 9 but im going in early to talk to the manager about the money b/c i am older, have more job experience, was more flexible with the pay, and am paying for college, so there is no way im gonna let come slacker higschool soph get paid more than me cuz hes a guy! fuck that! so i guess the last time i wrote was on casual sex friday- how did that turn out for all of you? lol I dont even remember exactly what i did on friday...oh yeah, i went out with Alex Jeff and Josh. They came to my house after and my parents had friends over and they were drinking so we thought y not? lol we met them at buffalos and then came back to my house and drank and laughed and talked and reminisced...etc. I didnt really drink that much b/c i had to drive someone home and then I started to after that, but still i didnt b/c i had ppl over and i had to be responsible...wow i dont remember being responsible in israel! lol laura did that for me! :) Then Erin came over and sleptover and hu with josh- lol that was funny! Saturday night was the BEST NIGHT EVER! Amanda had a hot tub party and at first it was just me missi max and amanda! Then more people came..and sarah- i dont know if u read my journals or not but whatever- ur a trashy hoebag. Im sorry but i cant stand people who need attention that badly...plus talia is my best friend so yeah...self explanitory! After everyone left there Amanda, Missi, and I met Jeff, Alex, and Josh at my house. Erin came over again but nada happened. Amanda was hilarious! It was a great night i thought...very entertaining. Sunday I drove them home and um..i dont remember what i did. I studied for art? no def. not. what did i do? oh yeah it was mothers day. we had a family lunhc thing that was kinda like thanksgiving and i gave my mom her present etc. Then Talia came over for a bit and we went to Aarons house to meet up wuth Jeff, Alex, Tindale, and Aaron. That night Alex, Jeff and I like spent a great amount of time in Aarons hot tub! lol It was soooo relaxing! I wasnt prepared for it though so i wore aarons shorts and my shirt without a bra..lol that was interesting. we had fun though and then hung out a bit. Jeff and Alex and I went to Wendys and back to my house to eat and hang for a little. Monday i had my art final and then a class for panera that wasnt bad. On tuesday i took my mom to work, shopped at kohls!! YES NEW CLOTHS! took a VERY long shower, went to Yonis to check out the new basement and stuff and then picked my mom up from work and did my psych movie paper and studied for todays finals! ok thats my overveiw...Fabian comes home on sunday! See u all later! Current Mood: ALMOST DONE (Comment on this)